 Monday, September 29, 2008
 Fake a smile n it'll be Okay at 10:00 PMthis post is because i was thinking through this month happen de things. __________________________________________________ although its hard but i'll try. i may seem like a happy-go-lucky girl but im still a girl. many times i wear a mask. a smiling mask so u dont have to worry. u have enough worries already but i hate myself for that day when i just broke down i cried. its like the bottle is full n it comes pouring out. everywhere i look people in their own cliques own groups own fun and games own chitchat and gossip but me? im all alone. sit in class mostly alone. but im lucky to have kaixin, pearlin, munyee, nicole, shuyun n even jerome around me. i dont know what will happen to me if they're not here for me. guess i'll be all alone. i want to be strong. i dun want to cry anymore. but i've tried my best and i failed. xoxo , you know you love me . Saturday, September 27, 2008
exams ahh. at 2:38 PMexams. exams exams exams. fook lahh... but dunno why i stress-less. ahahas! im awaiting oct 10! all over liaos by then. then can everyday playplayplay! wahahahas! :DDDDD oct 24 too! aft that day jiu no more sku liaos! ________________________________________________ tags replies: passerby: thanks for all ur encouraging words. they've helped me alot! ur mum: happy birthday! ahahahs! hope u liked my presents. xoxo , you know you love me . Tuesday, September 23, 2008
down... at 8:14 PMthese week i've been feeling down alot... my grades are falling too.. --------------------------------------------------- she sits at the table so alone.... alone in a crowd full of people she dont know.. all the use-to-bes everywhere. ever since that day, shes been alone. nobody ever speaks to her, nobody ever eats with her. it's like shes transparent. unseen and unheard of. sometimes, outside she fakes a smile. but inside she hurting soo much. but she tells herself to be strong. she has to be. xoxo , you know you love me . Monday, September 22, 2008
hais... at 6:06 PMsometimes i really dont know how to react to you. sometimes i really think i dont understand you at all. this morning i look at u. u were laughing and singing so happily. then she whacked ur back for fun. i thought u would scold her. cause u always said to me, "DONT TOUCH ME. DONT EVER EVER TOUCH ME." "MY BACK JUST RECOVERED U KNOW?! SO DUN TOUCH ME!" u know how hurt i would feel when i hear this? i thought u treated me like a real friend. but i just realised. all i am is just a subsitute. when all ur frens are not here. u would come to me. like im ur spare battery. i always tried to ignore this and continue loving u. but now i feel so tired. i feel so tired of being ur replacement. when she's here all u would do is ask, "pearlyn ne?" u wont even say hi to me. u just ignored me. so i've decided to just take a break. free myself for awhile. i want to stop crying over you. but rmb i've always loved u as a fren and as a family. p.s. J i really dont know what i'll do if u're not here to make me smile today. thankyou so much. xoxo , you know you love me . Friday, September 19, 2008
library. at 3:35 PMim at library studying. i very guai de cans. with pearlyn and my friend. lol, my science all done liaos. lalalala~~~ now left maths and geog. yehlin, daniel, jodie is here too. but i dont think they saw us. here so many commonwealthians lo. see left got one, see right got soo many. i tink im going to home around 5. hahas. was so happy that today dance cancelled :DDD im going to mug my math le so this is going to be a really short post. besides exams are like next week. ttyl. cheryl :D xoxo , you know you love me . Wednesday, September 17, 2008
{ super duper tired } at 10:39 PMtoday was a normal day la. school-ed as per usual. `~after school~' din want to go home so early. so went to kajiao zhiming,chunglok they all. they doing geog project. then i jiu folo lo. ended up helping o.o!! then homed around 5 with chunglok n vincent. took bus to JEC. went to mac to find kaixin they all. they studying there mahs. then how i know junwang they all outside. that ass somemore tried to trip me lo. foook. suan liaos. then bought mac for dinner. `~ home ~' homed and on com. then 7.30-9.30 got chinese tuition. fuckk laahh. so tired liaos still need tuition. but got one good thing lo. maybe i can tuition my teacher de son for english. good la. then can earn more money. haha then can go out liaos. hope i get the job sia. tataas. ( did the lines below out of boredness.) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Love is a very special thing. it can happen in one day or even one second. being loved is a blessing. and loving someone is divine. no matter how long it'll last. one week.. one month.. or forever. I'll treasure ur love for me. and keep it inside my heart forever. babyy i love you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ xoxo , you know you love me . Tuesday, September 16, 2008
phew. at 8:14 PMwoooots. damn happpy! my science got pass. 28/45 :DDDDD heng sia. my results this two term dropping like siao sia. at least my english n science can pull up abit. phews. `~ after school ~' ehs. fuck sia... today got dance lehh! then cannot go out lo. super sao xin. then madeline was angry with me with sth. madeline: sry laaah! i too hyper liao maa.. forgive me, this stupid girl? hehes. then homed at 5.30pm i sit the bus with vernice, yehlin and pearlyn. we go buy bubble tea :D i nvr buy, cause i scared later i pok kai. then managed to drag pearlyn pei wo. superduper yays. although she abit unwilling laa =x hmm i abit lazy post liaos. ttyls. _________________________________________________ tag replies- -Jimmy-: im smiling :DDD hohoho. LOL* kaixin, madeline: okay thanks! theNINEyearoldkidfrom15!: hello cookie monster :D linked. xoxo , you know you love me . Monday, September 15, 2008
tired... at 8:16 PM`~ morning ~' this morning horh sooooo heavy rain ehs. i swear la! somemore so suay i is pianpian today must take bus leh no car worh. nvm lorh. who knows i halfway to sku in bus the sky started to pourpourpour i was like cham liaos... chionged all the way from bus stop to school. although distance shortshort horhs still all wet leh! wakao. **** la reach there my uni all see through lehs super paiseh. then chiong to the level 3 de private toilet. i took off my shirt to dry . took my freaking half an hour >:( wtf. aiyahhhs then help pearlyn n munyee dry off also. i really hate rainy days lorh! rawrs. `~recess~' today kaixin hao quiet worh... somemore nvr eat much.. i very worried lehs. somemore face gloomygloomy longlong de. i dun like cans. i wan you to smile! smilesmilesmile!!!! see u cry i feel very helpless lehs. i want to hug u but i somemore scared u scold me. i really felt like just crying with u larhh. kaixin.... anything happen just tell me okay? dun bottle up, its bad.. `~ after sku ~' after commontest i chionged to 3rd floor study corner. do retest. walao! i fail again lehhhhs. cry sia... after test i met up with madeline, huimin, xuanying and zhenyi we go shopping :D wait. i no money shop semo?! nvm. then me n huimin go her house get things then meet up with madeline. madeline went to collect something. huimin say she wan go jp library STUDY. can believe anots? heehes. huimin no offence horh! then homed around 6.30 with madeline. then reached home 7+ lorh. now blogging here. tatas, Loveees Cheryl. __________________________________________ tags replies- Jane: erms hello! but i dun rmb u worh. so sry, who are u? Chloe: Linked you lerh :DDDD xoxo , you know you love me . Sunday, September 14, 2008
hey readers :D at 12:44 PMi've just changed the blogskin and all. and i kindof lost all my links. if u want to be linked, tag on the cbox okay? thankyou! Cheryl Loveeees <33 xoxo , you know you love me . Thursday, September 04, 2008
down.. at 11:16 PMlife's goes up.. life's goes down.. but life still go on.. sometimes u're sad.. sometimes u're happy. maybe sometimes u're having mood swings. but rmb, u nvr know if there someone out there, looking out for u. tell urself to smile, but instead, u cry faking a smile, but inside u're hurting bad. saying u're strong, but u aren't its horrible feeling so weak. so vunerable, so defenceless... u need someone to take care of you look out for you.. help u in times of need. but now u look around, theres no one in sight. reaching out to hold someone, but instead u grasp air. trying to call someone, but instead the same monotonous dial tone. why is life so difficult, u might ask but it is just reality. xoxo , you know you love me . |
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